An Unending Shiver

With all that dirt and pain

I was struggling to walk

Dumped under a heap of guilt

I was afraid to talk

I am a sinner and who is not?

What I am getting now isn’t a reward

Tired and confused soul

Bounded by ruinous rules

Saw a way to escape,

By drowning in deep you

You pretended to be an ignorant spectator

I enjoyed being ignored

Till the time I gave up

Loosing myself completely for you

Slapped by torturing questions

I saved you in my heart

Those speculative eyes churned my peace

Hurt, shattered, scared

I kept you alive with every breath

You ….A beautiful mystery..

But, I am tired and giving up!